What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you\'re feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I\'d give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I\'m giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you\'re blue
Tell me darlin\' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I\'m giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don\'t fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you\'re blue
Tell me darlin\' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

屍骨遍野存活將領
遇上匪幫兇狠首領
攜同著精英　打劫糧車兵
以擋一刀見稱

山村嘆無奈被洗清
靠一股幫眾的衝勁
投名狀見證　三個夠堅貞
變得一呼百應

當初的歌姬小妾未認命
蓮生愛救兵　但厭倦血腥
誰料結義最後只得槍炮聲

投名狀是義氣嗎
名利暗暗令友伴生變化
決心好嗎　但野心可怕
是昨日誓言不再嗎

投名狀重視過嗎
權力戰最忌諱兵不厭詐
暗中爭霸　用計都不怕
讓情誼良心都火化.

三公分陽光 三公分空氣 堵在眼前 像一面玻璃
擋住了妳表情 剩下只有腳印

一直向前走 走不完距離 一直向後 退不出回憶
很高興有心事 幫我困住自己

妳頭髮上淡淡青草香氣 變成了風才能和我相遇
妳的目光 蒸發成雲 再下成雨我才能夠靠近

感謝我不可以 住進妳的眼睛 所以才能 擁抱妳的背影
有再多的遺憾 用來牢牢記住 不完美的所有美麗

感謝我不可以 擁抱妳的背影 所以才能 變成妳的背影
躲在安靜角落 不用妳回頭看 不用珍惜

我懷裡所有溫暖的空氣 變成風也不敢和妳相遇
我的心事 蒸發成雲 再下成雨卻捨不得淋溼妳

感謝我不可以 住進妳的眼睛 所以才能 擁抱妳的背影
有再多的遺憾 用來牢牢記住 不完美的所有美麗

感謝我不可以 擁抱妳的背影 所以才能 變成妳的背影
躲在安靜角落 不用妳回頭看 不用珍惜

感謝我不可以 擁抱妳的背影 所以才能 變成妳的背影
躲在安靜角落 如果妳回頭看 不用在意

 

 

 

 

 

去年的這個時候  我在做什麼呢??

我站在軍營一個偏僻的小彈庫旁     站哨  是第二班

 交接完後    勤務開始      通常  很硬的班  都是菜鳥要去站  還要被自以為老的學長拖哨

 

抬頭望著明亮的月亮   數著  57   58    59      60     Happy Birthday to myself.... 

迎接這一天的第一秒鐘  感覺是很不一樣的

身旁只有冷冰冰的空氣與寒風   身上穿著軍大衣   能塞多少件衣服  就塞幾件

因為  寒風吹起  真的沒有人可以為你抵擋

 

偶爾  參雜著幾聲狗吠   枯乾的樹葉刮動著柏油路面

颼颼的風聲  拍擊著樹枝上為數不多的枝葉

稀疏的黑影  搖晃著   椏椏的聲音從枝幹中傳出

或許還有幾聲失眠的詭異鳥叫

 

遠方的燈火下  也有一個哨點  他在做什麼呢

他必然不知道  這一天對於我的意義

耶誕節遲來的禮物  我一直這樣定位我自己

 

抬頭望著星空  臉上撫著寒風

耶誕老人  你走遠了嗎

我是你留下給我媽的禮物吧  是吧

 

身旁頂多有幾聲狗吠   等一下或許有一盞手電筒的燈會出現

我要提高警覺 

這也是我到部的第一個月   不能有差錯 

我的保護期即將過了

但另一方面來說  我也被違反規定提早叫來站哨  算是有問題的

 

 

天曉得

1227  0600~0800這一班令我永遠難以忘懷的哨

剛好過了一個月又一天    

衛哨失職

真是狗官又一隻    罪名隨便他羅織

毫不考慮為何事    便扣罪民的帽子

就因狗官心不適    你發飆來我出事

真要隨他來處置    我的天阿你去死

巫志宏~~~

 

Happy Birthday to me and Merry Christmas to you all……

 

又即將進入人生另一個時程    又將被歲月畫上一記

 

退伍到現在    這一段百感交集的日子裡

 

發生了好多事情    面臨了很多抉擇    很多壓力

 

有好多好多的不確定因素

 

人就像漂泊在汪洋上    載浮載沉      真的會想要放棄     真的會想要放棄   ....

 

 

當我在結束勞碌的軍中生活後   我在退伍日接到我第一份工作

 

就好像拿到了一塊漂流木    可以讓我暫時浮在海洋上

 

但是    最後    我放棄了

 

原來    我也可以為了某個人而放棄了這踏上社會的第一步   

 

這是一個頗重大的決定     也忘不了 

 

因為    我會擔心因此很少看到他   很少見到一面      沒有太多時間相處

 

我想我不會後悔     等....

 

 

 

還有    好多好多的壓力面臨

 

必須承受面對    然而也想逃避

 

好多事情想做    但是現實生活卻不是這樣

 

一直以來其實都過得很孤獨

 

或許沒有人相信

 

這段時間     過了   看起來  我是為了追求我想要的東西在努力

 

不管是什麼目標

 

但是   依舊沒個踏實 

 

等待是痛苦   還是幸福

 

以前寫過"幸福籌碼"一段話

 

我想要給人幸福     想要給自己快樂    許未來一個安定

 

何時?

 

如今    也應該早就忘記什麼叫做過生日了吧

 

然而    卻又在此時此刻    聽到im no good....

 

 

 

 

 

 

我的路不在小朋友走的小小的路上，

我的路不在汽車跑的寬寬的路上。

上山時我喜歡走我的路，下山時我和小鳥一起唱歌。

要是你們也肯在我的路上走走，

你們會聽見我和小鳥在唱歌。

聽著歌聲向前走，

路就是再長，也不會覺得累。

我喜歡走我的路。

部隊要就寢時

有個實習值星

不知道他是太緊張了 還是真的口令沒背熟

就寢的正常版口令是:"現在時間2150,所有人床上躺平,走廊淨空,各寢熄燈手就位"

接著各寢的熄燈手就會回答"x寢熄燈手就位"

那位實習值星第一次喊了:"現在時間,2150,所有人躺平"

學長聽了後就開始狂幹他:"躺平什麼東西啊,再亂喊嘛!重喊"

可憐的實習值星第二次就喊了:"現在時間,2152,所有人走廊躺平,寢室淨空"

一堆人在旁邊除了傻眼,也只能背對著他瘋狂偷笑

接著學長對著寢室大喊:

"聽到沒有,你同學叫你們所有人出來走廊躺平,所有人都給我出來躺平"



我只看到那位實習值星的臉很尷尬

一直跟學長說對不起

今天12/13

下午接到一通電話  話筒裡的聲音說著

先生  您的硬碟好了  可以過來拿回去了

我好開心

心想  天阿  這麼快  我10號送修的時候

明明就跟我說  大概要三個星期時間送回原廠修理

我滿心期待  我的資料  研究   旅行照片  終於有救了

這些都是我辛苦做的東西耶 

 

本以為可以在完全打不開前救回東西

沒想到    連讓我拷貝的時間跟機會都沒有了

當硬碟真正打不開的那時候  我心凉了一大半 

到處找看有沒有辦法修  以前 曾經在別顆硬碟出現過一樣的問題

後來有救到  因為又稍微恢復正常  但當我救完我想要的資料之後  救斷氣了

那時候聽說修1G要一萬元  我當時壞的那一顆40G  那要多少錢呢??

現在這一顆250G  不過大慨只用了100多G  不過 我只要我想要的東西救回救好  應該不需要太多萬吧

但是  我也負擔不起阿  我很窮

結果聽到說要送原廠  我以為得救了  我開心地自行送到服務據點去  送修  唉唉  大錯特錯

 

沒想到今天  跟我說  換一顆一模一樣  新的硬碟給你

 

當場傻掉  我要的是救回我的資料耶  你給我再多顆硬碟  也換不回我的心血跟回憶吧

他說  假如我當天來拿回去的話  還有可能追得回

不然 當晚或隔天  就送台北 一兩天內就出口到國外去~~~新加坡

難道 我要上演到國追硬碟的戲碼嗎  天阿  我的心血~~~

我追問  那後續還有可能追得到嗎

他說他不知道原廠那邊會怎樣處理

我心想 一定是把硬碟直接毀了吧

 

他說 要就也是得在送來我這邊之前就要先救了 

廢話  我當然知道阿    唉  我盡力救了  但是  硬碟一直出問題  最後 最後  真的就死了

我要的只是你幫我把硬碟修好  我不要新的阿

現在 我的硬碟  我的回憶  已經到國外去了  我該怎麼辦阿

這次真的是難逃一劫了

 

看著新硬碟  到底是該高興  還是該哭

 

I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. So we have come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. So we have come to cash this check — a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quick sands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force. The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. They have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom. We cannot walk alone.

As we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied, as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as our children are stripped of their selfhood and robbed of their dignity by signs stating "For Whites Only". We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair.

I say to you today, my friends, so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; one day right there in Alabama, little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together.

This is our hope. This is the faith that I go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring."

And if America is to be a great nation this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!

Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California!

But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!

Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.And when this happens, when we allow freedom to ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

偶爾，我也在想。
 
比方說，其實我並不真正屬於哪一個圈子；
比方說，其實我犯了一個致人於死的無心之過；
比方說，我要追求的是更甚於肉體所遭遇的一切；
比方說，我要把腦中暗潮洶湧的紊亂世界，隱藏在一張有如海平面般寧靜的面部表情之下；
比方說，我要把心中不能說的秘密，化為白紙黑字之後再化為灰燼；
 
偶爾，我也在想，其實我們想的事情都一樣。

以下  這段文字  不是出自我手  但是  幾乎是可以說  心有靈犀~~感覺  仍是好的!

 

 也不知道要怎麼去形容我喜歡怎樣的人
那是一股感覺
你會心甘情願的陪他去
你會很溫柔的對待他
他不用說什麼 你都會盡全力去完成
你會有股衝動想見他
見了面之後 也不用作什麼 只要有他作伴 你都心甘情願
時間會過的好快好快 快到你都不知道時間是怎麼流逝的...

當 你有這些感覺的時候

會知道        就是他了
他是個會讓你想要付出一切珍惜的人

而當你發現那一刻 是最美好的時候

可惜的是 我跟他注定只能當朋友 (苦笑)
但是 跟他在一起的時候 感覺  仍是好的!

無聊踢踢球

 

 

把滑鼠移到球門  就會出紅色框框

 

將你想要的紅色框框位置上點滑鼠一下

 

就會自動有人幫你踢球

 

選得好的話   你就是神腳

 

 

 

 

「就業情報」指出，年近三十歲，卻一直家裡蹲的「啃老族」暴增，年輕女性罹患「公主病」，一直要人「秀秀」的也愈來愈多！調查分析，「啃老族」並非弱勢族群，反而是學歷條件還不錯，但自我期許太高，不願放下身段屈就；大專院校以國立大學延畢的現象最嚴重，台大最明顯！（張雅惠報導）

「Career就業情報」發佈「拒絕長大新世代」的文章，內容提到，年近三十卻理直氣壯家裡蹲、依賴父母經濟的「啃老族」暴增，心理上的依賴也讓年輕女性有「公主病」，尤其是自認為外表長得不錯的女生，更容易有公主的嬌縱行為，缺乏責任感。

就業情報指出，三、四年級的父母，多半想彌補自己當年無法多讀點書、或者物質條件極差的缺憾，這更容易讓「啃老族」的子女吃定，以為「只要家裡有錢，多蹲幾年都沒差」。就業情報分析，部分啃老族的學歷條件極佳，但是，自我期許很高，一旦外在條件不如預期，就會開始逃避，寧可繼續升學、唸研究所、或者乾脆延畢，以國立大學延畢現象最嚴重，最高學府的台灣大學更是其中之最。

就業情報也引述維基百科定義「公主病」，「某些腦殘女性自以為是公主，應該受到公主般的待遇，在家多半備受呵護，以為全天下男人也應這樣對她們，好發族群是三十歲以下的女性」。就業情報指出，不論真假公主，有八成的公主病是父母造成的，父母應儘早培養子女獨立負責的精神，面對現實，在職場找到一片天。

[ 一般疾病 ] 我弟感冒發燒全身發熱，朋友建議我用散熱膏幫他擦全身來散熱？

[ 兩性關係 ] 我阿爸明天要帶我去小人國玩，我該戴尾戒防小人嗎？

[ 生活法律 ] 隔壁的皮小孩用水槍射我，我是否可以告他蓄意謀殺？

[ 一般疾病 ] 我的兒子吃品客洋芋片，長出翹鬍子了，誰來救救我兒子？

[ 連線通訊 ] 是不是把隱形眼鏡戴上，就可以看到及時通隱藏上線的人阿？

[ 其他 ] 我想染頭髮，泡在醬油裡話多久會變色？

[ 超自然 ] 算命的說我命短～我該抽長壽煙來延長壽命嗎？？？

[ 周邊設備 ] 我的碼錶想要歸零，我該買龜齡膏來幫他歸零嗎？

[ 兩性關係 ] 我女朋友常亂跑，害我都找不到人，我可以把她加入追蹤清單追蹤他嗎？

[ 小吃夜市 ] 昨天去買黑輪時～我跟老闆點一串櫻桃小丸子～為何不理我？

[ 男性疾病 ] 最近要去開刀～～我可以指名名醫開膛手傑克嗎!？

[ 小吃夜市 ] 我去小吃店要點一盤大陸妹.老闆為啥帶我到一個房間？

[ 心理學 ] 我很怕有一天再也問不出那麼有深度的問題？該怎麼辦？

[ 鄉土劇 ] 有王子變青蛙～～將來會推出～老子變西瓜嗎？

[ 紀念品 ] 前天看國家寶藏～～早上醒來發現床上有一張地圖...我該去尋寶嗎？

[ 性教育 ] 去參觀日本愛滋博覽會,是不是全程都要戴保險套!？

[ 臉部保養 ]女友抱怨他嘴唇太紅，於是我趁他睡覺把他全臉塗紅，讓嘴唇看起來不會這麼紅，為何他起床出門回來後打我一巴掌，然後跟我分手？？

[ 生存遊戲 ] 小姪子吵著要我陪他玩跳房子～我帶他去5樓頂..為何他哭了

[ 華語音樂 ] 我同學一直唱麻吉的屌，但是又唱的很差，我可以帶小松小柏來制衡他嗎？

[ 用藥資訊 ] 去醫院看病，我根本沒生病，但醫生說我腸胃炎，可以告她詐欺嗎？

[ 皮膚保養 ] 我阿爸等下要帶我去光滑商場，我該先去角質讓皮膚變光滑再去嗎？

[ 生活法律 ]我去超商買了一個國名便當吃，我吃完會變成國名黨黨員嗎？？

[ 一般疾病 ] 我妹妹很健忘...我需要去買記憶卡給他吃嗎？

[ 兩性關係 ]女友說想洗鴛鴦浴，於是我買了一盒水鴛鴦丟到浴缸，叫女友來洗，為何女友要打我一巴掌，然後跟我分手？？

[ 心理學 ] 如果有一天，發生了意外，你只剩下兩個罐頭，咖哩的味道像大便跟大便的味道像咖哩，你會選哪個吃？

[ 角色扮演 ]隔壁小美找我玩黑白猜，我打扮成黑白郎君來玩，為什麼她不理我？

[ 民俗 ]過年長輩發紅包時..我叫弟妹們感謝長輩....所以在一旁喊家屬答禮，為何會被我媽打的很慘..... 是因為我沒把紅包拿給她嗎？

[ 社會學 ]老師說要請我吃竹筍炒肉絲，我就準備一副碗筷來吃，為何老師沒請我吃，反而要打我？

[ 民俗 ]今天踩到二陀狗屎，我朋友說我很塞，我該擦防塞油來預防踩到塞嗎？？